heyy. today i just received the most wonderful punishment from god ever.





















i screwed up my maths test.

after how i promised myself
hey, no matter what, you MUST do well. you can't let down on yourself.

and nope, after so long, i havent gotten over it yet.

the thought of me failing my maths test just terrifies me. i can fail LA, i just CAN'T fail maths.

i feel so terribly stupid now. and worse off, i reallyreallyreally hate myself for being so careless. veryvery careless indeed.

i think i'm handling failures in a very negative manner. i feel like i'm useless. like, why can't i be like the others? who did so well for everything. why can't i just be like them? i tried so hard to achieve, but everytime i realise, i'm my own enemy.

and so i told my parents about my situation. but they just don't give a damn. like hello? can you at least say something to console me? like you can do better next time or something. but no, maybe you think that i deserve it too. maybe this is what i get for slacking.

so i couldnt take it anymore, and i let it all out in the bathroom. honestly, i feel so much better after letting it all out. like everything is washed away. and my mind is so much clearer.



anyway. on a brighter note, went out with denise and nicholas to sakae sushi for lunch after school. it costs a horrifying $13.90 for buffet but i only paid $10 and nicholas paid the rest of it (muahaha). denise tried to stuff me with various dishes and i almost puked on the table. but the food is still nice lah.

then went to watch long hu men with denise after lunch. the show was nice~ except that it's really exaggerated to the max. but it's still worth the money lah, and it's quite touching also.

yea that's what i did today to help myself cheer up a little. just a little. yea.. anyway that's all for today. tata~